Crazy please call me.
I'm writing this for my own good.
1 Peter 1:13-21
13Therefore, preparing your minds for action,[a] and being sober-minded, set your hope fully on the grace that will be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ. 14As obedient children, do not be conformed to the passions of your former ignorance, 15but as he who called you is holy, you also be holy in all your conduct,16since it is written, "You shall be holy, for I am holy." 17And if you call on him as Father who judges impartially according to each one’s deeds, conduct yourselves with fear throughout the time of your exile, 18knowing that you were ransomed from the futile ways inherited from your forefathers, not with perishable things such as silver or gold, 19but with the precious blood of Christ, like that of a lamb without blemish or spot. 20He was foreknown before the foundation of the world but was made manifest in the last times for the sake of you 21who through him are believers in God, who raised him from the dead and gave him glory, so that your faith and hope are in God.
Have you ever been lonely and clung to the wrong person when they came along?
I hope you say yes because right now I know that what I'm doing is wrong and never have I seen my flesh fail in this way and have a fear that it won't be understood.
To some it may not be that big of a deal but it's made me sick to my stomach for days now.
I'll make the story quick.
I met a guy outside of a bar several months ago. We had a lot in common. He wasn't all that good lookin' but it was nice to talk to someone that had the same been raised on a farm and understood that life. We exchanged numbers and only texted that night a little and the next day until I completely stopped texting him because he wasn't a christian or the type of guy I should get involved with.
He texted me last week. I didn't have his number so when I saw the number I asked who it was and when he told me I responded with "it's been awhile.." We talked a little more that night but not really at all the next day until 10pm when I was sitting in my CPR class and I texted him. Bad choice. Still can't tell you why I did it. We continued to texted back and forth. I knew every morning and night I would get something from you whether it was a "sleep well" or a "I hope you have a good day." Followed later in the day by a "How was your day?" Unfortunately I looked forward to these texts knowing in my heart that he had one thing in mind. To ask me out and then get me into bed… he'd done it once he was going to try it again. So… he did end up asking me out and I said no because well I really didn't have time for it but also I could NOT do that to myself. Either way… I did almost say yes to dinner with him and I'm scared out of my mind that I will actually say yes next time.
That's all I have to say for now.
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