Do you ever wonder...

How you can sit in church and pray and pray and pray that this week would be different and then even before the sermon is over your mind is already set on the week ahead and your begging prayers forgotten?
I don't know why but every Sunday I sit in church, crycrycry and then almost refuse to follow Christ through out the week.
I feel kinda crazy right now...

This World.

Sometimes I get overwhelmed when I hear there has been another earthquake and tens of thousands of people are dead. Not overwhelmed like what can I do but overwhelmed like "How much more can happen before this all just becomes the norm and people stop responding?" I don't think will stop responding all together but when the tsunami in Japan happened everyone jumped on it and helped, raised money all that but lately I've been realizing that big things happen very often and people need help ALL THE TIME... sometimes growing up sucks.