So today I was talking to a roommate and basically we ended talking about how hard it is to ask for forgiveness when we know for sure we will commit the same sin again. If not today then tomorrow for sure, why even ask? Why continue, it makes no sense? And why isn't God sufficient?
I think God isn't sufficient because we have this idea of what sufficiency is followed by a perception that has been manipulated by years (or days) of who God is and when it comes down to it we don't know Christ and we have no idea what it means for Him to be sufficient. So, we when take that big breathe and ask Him to be enough we have to let go of every idea, perception and sunday school picture of who Christ is and allow Him to actually begin to teach us. And frick does that take trust.
Sometimes I have no idea of what I've actually got myself into but I'm already so deep that I can't exactly get out. Not that I would want to. There is just so much to God and it's overwhelming at time but I love when He takes these times to teach me.
So, anyways I was reading through Romans and came across several verses that just clarified somethings.
Like why I keep sinning and just can't seem to get it right.
This is Romans 7:7-25 (NLT)
God’s Law Reveals Our Sin
7 Well then, am I suggesting that the law of God is sinful? Of course not! In fact, it was the law that showed me my sin. I would never have known that coveting is wrong if the law had not said, “You must not covet.”[c] 8 But sin used this command to arouse all kinds of covetous desires within me! If there were no law, sin would not have that power. 9 At one time I lived without understanding the law. But when I learned the command not to covet, for instance, the power of sin came to life, 10 and I died. So I discovered that the law’s commands, which were supposed to bring life, brought spiritual death instead. 11 Sin took advantage of those commands and deceived me; it used the commands to kill me. 12 But still, the law itself is holy, and its commands are holy and right and good.
13 But how can that be? Did the law, which is good, cause my death? Of course not! Sin used what was good to bring about my condemnation to death. So we can see how terrible sin really is. It uses God’s good commands for its own evil purposes.
Struggling with Sin
14 So the trouble is not with the law, for it is spiritual and good. The trouble is with me, for I am all too human, a slave to sin. 15 I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate. 16 But if I know that what I am doing is wrong, this shows that I agree that the law is good. 17 So I am not the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
18 And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[d] I want to do what is right, but I can’t. 19 I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. 20 But if I do what I don’t want to do, I am not really the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
21 I have discovered this principle of life—that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. 22 I love God’s law with all my heart. 23 But there is another power[e] within me that is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. 24 Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? 25 Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord. So you see how it is: In my mind I really want to obey God’s law, but because of my sinful nature I am a slave to sin.
Okay so there's that then there's Romans 8:12-13
12 Therefore, dear brothers and sisters,[a] you have no obligation to do what your sinful nature urges you to do. 13 For if you live by its dictates, you will die. But if through the power of the Spirit you put to death the deeds of your sinful nature,[b] you will live.
Ummm... so much I want to say but also these verses kind of speak for themselves so...
I'm just going to go to bed.
It was nice talking to you though.
